There is no escape.
Eventually life catches up with you.
And you realize how little and small you are.
And how much you have to learn,
About those people you
About life's rules and terms.
I don't want to.
I don't want to hurt.
I don't want to cry anymore.
I don't want to be face to face with my character defects,
And feelings! Oh boy.
Don't get me started.
That's how I feel right now. Pouty. Cynical.
Sighing at this inevitable state I'm in, in order to reach a more compassionate and joyful state. I have to trek through the mire that is the shit I caked on myself throughout my life.
By hiding, procrastination, pretending.
I don't want to be grown up. But I can't remain in Never-never land anymore. They kicked me out a couple weeks ago. I'm crying and clawing at the exit door.